i'm glad i survived
enough to understand
more than my father
grandfather etc

feels good to know
that youtube is like a time machine
available forever
that i found almost all the music
and movies i ever liked
and - in theory -
i played the same feelings

but alas (i gotta say it like this, it's a must)
genes like busy ants
throughout my life
your life
like indifferent rain
like a leading red thread
with its end hidden in a knot