50.Yeah...Second choice in a friendship that was supposed to be different, not change. Maybe it never was as I thought; just my imagination’s creativity flying inside my head. I wish I could go away somewhere alone, start a new beginning with the experience I’ve gathered so far. Life’s simply not fair. I hate it when each detail becomes something I am obliged by myself to meditate on. Still, right now I wanna go away, these days have been so harmful that I’m too tired... I’m tired of desiring things to happen, and… try, try, try until I change, fall deep low, behind blue eyes, near heart-breaking illusions, narrow-minded phantoms which continuously creep around, just as I struggle to find a shelter. It was annoying how I needed someone to “be” with me at all times. Needed so much that now I cannot utter a word…. Why bother? Do not feel people around able to understand…. Why speak when I simply can’t explain everything, I’d be going on and on and on without any sense from the others’ point of view.

Say what you want, do what you must, come what may.

Thursday, 05 April 2007
20:43:49